Why I’m Spending Two Weeks in the Bush
At the end of this month, I’ll be disappearing into the bush in NSW for two weeks.
No phone reception or internet. No clients or responsibilities, other than to be present with myself, the land, and the work I’m there to do. When I tell people this, they often say the same thing.
“That sounds amazing!”
And it does. But the truth is, it’s going to be deep work. And it isn’t something I decided on overnight. This has been calling me for a very long time.
It Started When I Was a Child
When I was young, I was obsessed with Africa. I know, it sounds a bit random!
It wasn’t in a casual way, but rather in a way that lived in my bones. I read every book I could find. I memorised maps, knew the animals, the landscapes, the languages. It’s hard to explain why, but something about that land felt familiar to me, even though I had never been there.
It didn’t make logical sense. It wasn’t something anyone around me shared. But the pull was always there. It wasn’t until years later, in my early twenties, I finally went. I spent two and a half months in Namibia, and from the moment I stepped onto the earth, something inside me shifted. It wasn’t dramatic or overwhelming. It was quiet. But it was unmistakable.
It felt like coming home.
Not to a place I had known in this lifetime, but to something older. Something my body recognised before my mind could understand it. That feeling has never left me.
The Awakening That Changed Everything
Many years later, during the early stages of my Kundalini awakening in 2023, I had an experience that brought that same feeling rushing back.
I was giving Reiki to my friend, and suddenly the room disappeared. The four walls vanished and all of a sudden, I was standing on dry earth, surrounded by a circle of Shamans…I was one of them!
My body started shaking, almost like belly dancing, uncontrollable. I was chanting in my mind, but unsure as to what I was saying. My feet were stomping, my body was swaying, and I could feel an intense rush of energy running through me. It was like an ancient part of me awakened from within, and Spirit was channeling through me in a way I had never felt before.
In the centre of the circle of Shamans was a fire, its flames rising and falling in rhythm with the sound of drumming and chanting. My body was moving with it — stomping, shaking, dancing — as if it knew exactly what to do.
And then, from the centre of the fire, a snake began to rise.
Slowly. Deliberately. Responding to the movement and sound.
Responding to me.
It was one of the most surreal and profound experiences of my life. Not frightening, but deeply humbling. Afterwards, I remember lying on the floor, completely exhausted. That night I was meditating to try and figure out what the heck had happened…and I saw one of the Shamans standing right in front of me.
I asked him…”who are you?”
He replied… “I am YOU!”
Expansion Eventually Led Me Back to the Earth
The years that followed were filled with activation, expansion, and transformation. My awareness opened in ways I never expected. My connection to energy deepened. My psychic abilities strengthened. But alongside that expansion came something else.
Destabilisation.
My nervous system had been stretched beyond anything it had known before. There were times I felt ungrounded, like I was floating somewhere between worlds, not fully anchored in my body.
And slowly, I began to realise something important. I didn’t need more activation. I desperately needed grounding. Because expansion means very little if your nervous system doesn’t feel safe enough to hold it.
The Land Has Always Known How to Hold Us
This is what has drawn me to shamanic training.
Not because it is something separate from the work I already do, but because it brings everything back to the earth. The shamanic path isn’t about escaping reality. It’s about becoming deeply rooted within it. It reminds you that healing doesn’t just happen through energy, but through your relationship with the land, your body, and yourself.
There is something profoundly calming about being in nature. Your nervous system softens. Your mind quiets. Your body remembers a slower rhythm. You begin to feel held. Not by a person. But by the earth itself. This is what I’m returning to.
Allowing Myself to Be Held Too
In my day-to-day life, I am the one holding space for others. I support my clients as they move through their own healing, their own awakenings, their own integration.
This time away is an opportunity for me to be held. To step out of the role of the guide, and back into the role of the student. To reconnect with the part of myself that existed long before I ever became a healer. And I’m so excited for this next part of my personal journey.
Reiki & Energy Alchemy sessions available!
I’ll be away from 18-31st March while I complete this training. During this time, I’ll be offline and fully immersed in the experience.
If you’ve been feeling the need to slow down, reconnect, or ground yourself after periods of stress or change, this may be your nervous system asking for support.
Reiki & Energy Alchemy sessions are designed to help you land, integrate, and reconnect with yourself in a safe and supported way. I’ll be back from 2nd April, and looking forward to seeing you all then!
You can book your session here!
